Category: Black Book

step away from the machine into the dream where it happens right before you a New name a New state of being and nothing will be the same again when it’s all over when you’re back again

the cold air bushes for the first time the bright light first pain of the coming life the sharp pain relentless within as the first cut takes said extra skin I can’t even adjust before I’m alone again waiting in the tray for hours that pass each day

starting to spin can not control lungs filling unbelievable taste must learn must understand adapt and become or rise and escape to succumb would be easy open mouth let it flow in all it would take stop fighting slam against rocks let the current win what is outside in the darkness could i escape can…

eyes open faint red light unbelievable sting pushed down sharp rocks arms cant move pressure moving need to escape kick the bottom angle self use current to rise darkness and fire stench of piss stale and rancid fecal matter rushes pulled back under where am i? how is this? i must survive

it feels like so long ago i had the supreme being watching very closely everything was going smoothly it was so warm it was all beautiful it was the beginning it was everything the future was bright no matter how bad no fear of sickness all that we had now ahead is dark darkness all…

This is unbelievable Seriously, inconceivable How could this be everywhere? For something true invisible? How did I believe? Something fills this void? Security from the blowing wind Humanity just someone’s toy? Your god is null Nothing at all Not a particle Nothing at all Group manipulation In every metropolitan Maintain those mental walls As my…

Everything spinning Everything fading Everything Nobody talking Nobody helping Nobody I’m not surviving I’m not surviving Falling Pain is slowly fading Pain is all I’ve known Pain is now it’s over Now I’m nothing Now I’m not surviving I’m not surviving falling dying inside of me Dying reality Dying Lost all my hope Lost mental…

so long away will they remember? coming on sunday this cold november many questions i hope for the time mental wounds to heal closure will be mine pastor’s son i flood into his ears christianity is fascist wisdom beyond his years i stand back stunned and in thought anything expected surely this was not i…

I’ve done too much Splintered against the grain And now I am confined In this solitary pain I’ve had too much fun Pushing every limit Now I can not run Forced to act so timid Back to the holy book I focus hope so direly I decide it is the time To read entirely Two…

say thank you brush your teeth say your prayers now lay beneath look both ways eat your peas hold that door stay on your knees respect your elders know your place we are in temple please hide your face remember jesus your light and life he heals the sick saves you from strife step in…