Category: Blue Book

(brainwaves transforming)   [page 01] pain within coming and going laying right under the surface then erupting violently out of the smallest pore pissing the one i love off again stirring it up once more in my head the eruption subsides the calmness arrives my mind breathes my happiness thrives yet something underneath writhes everything…

reunited most orgasmic sound explosions of feeling sonic painting so beautiful static and drums piano and screaming whispers among the distant chants violins and a children’s toy slipping together forever away mental pictures of a train station lined up rejects walking away the current addiction to the frantic rotation amazing sounds and harmony pleasant feelings…

staring out of my window looking at the people roll by glancing from place to place doing my best not to cry holding on to my grace i think about what i’ve done everything both good and bad i think about the friends i’ve lost i think about the friends i have wishing all had…

hopes of a happy life mental pictures of purity drifting away from reality positive thinking pulling on tired without energy body aches with used up pain unknown destination of this day i feel alone and confused moving too slow to think clearly trying to be optimistic fuck this -explosion-

the screeches and screams merge first contact of unknown future dark skin told lies the meeting facility disappeared energetic craziness upset was done long hair oh yeah the one destroyed the day burned in the pool so high escaping unbelievable discoveries prompt connection perfection perfection perfection perfection collapse slowly lies personified with stupidity the desert…

this complication of hate and pain swimming in the hell inside my brain complicated contraptions of lov and shame scrawled on this anti-christian parchiment unable to achieve myself running my life into the groudn the harder i try forcing others to endure my grief and hate me unable to sleep and lonely as possible i…

you already think you know who i am and you think i give you so much oh but i give you so much more took you everywhere, gave you everything drug you back here and used you but you took too much left me here alone and cold what am i supposed to do you…

i woke up in a sweat my fists cut and bleeding no one else sees this threat something inside me is feeding this demon thrives within me he keeps up his laughter i’m fighting him alone i’m preventing my disaster it’s world war sixtynine all stuck inside my head i wish you all could help…

look in the mirror can you see your soul? can’t you see that hole? don’t you see you’re cold? you think you’re perfect don’t you you believe you’re going somewhere too you want the best for yourself don’t you you’ll never get near your goals will you look in the mirror again beginning to see…

this black and murky water encompasing my life filled with evil demon’s bells i cannot wish you this dark hell tiny organisms enter my system through my pores mouth and nose ravaging my muscles and organs taking out everything inside of me huge entities swim aroudn me eying my every movement overseeing their counterparts waiting…