Category: Red Book

still trying to fill this hole somewhere inside me sometimes widening sometimes deepening always expanding never collapsing ever encompassing inserting alcohol placing vents compliments a perfect woman a broken hymen a slice in my flash a strum on a guitar a glance from afar and a kiss goodbye then i lay on my bed next…

i hate this snow i hate myself and i wonder could i kill myself in such a way to stain all the snow on my porch on the lawn looking like a cherry slushy bloody cold and oh so mushy a nightmare for my neighbors a dream come true for me kill the fucking pain…

fuck you and your computer too you know there’s nothing you would do fuck me now you worthless cow you’re just a fucking lazy slob don’t you wait just do it now i want you to die too fucking try it bring it on you couldn’t handle all that’s wrong up inside this fucked up…

pissed off where i pay rent not knowing what to do feeling buds of friendship rot cringing as hate twangs am i an asshole? can’t i tolerate? can’t i keep a home? had one for a little while seems like it too is slipping away fucking and slapping and slipping away hating degrading and tearing away…

the white feathered bird bearer of the peace flag spreading love across the land laying on the desert floor stained with spilled blood a million armored battalions side by side and back to back marching over fertile land with programmed minds killing everything they find in front of them thousands of cities filled with millions…

after i kill you after your girlfriend fucks me and i kill her once i have killed your family and i kill the president and after i destroy god i want to hurt myself hurt the animals and hurt the earth a planet of pain dominated by one man as the asteroid strikes

i cannot erase this killing feeling rumbling through my body piercing my forehead slicing my heart my other side outside the circle of hate into the realm of love away from me for the moment and in that moment i cry cold and unsure how do i handle myself where should i turn and to…

i’m horny hard on in hand a few inches outside her ready to dive in we kiss she gasps i groan we collide love set aside not thinking of her now i grip her hair as i dig my fingers into her ass as i fuck penetrating pulling pounding profoundly she pushes me over climbs…

paranoia infectious disease my mentality down on it’s knees  

psychosis looming mentality cracked only love is steady my life is getting ready does he dare intervene? it’s hard enough suppressing desire playing internally forgetfulness on the prowl destroying current love presently controlling and i will devour wake up smile pull it out stab once shoot twice and laugh all night long in hell