Category: Red Book

I feel so old Out of touch Numb to everything I knew Undeniably bled dry of all resources Hate society too much to care Hate myself too much to try Hate my past too much to cry Drained out of everything so I stare My body aches from my carelessness Mind twisted and paranoid Done…

Welcome to my world Full of chameleons Treating you how they want Whenever Lets go pimping give you a blowjob Rub my back suck my sack I want to step outside Pour gasoline onto myself Turn myself into an inferno Singe away remaining health Get the fuck away from me I’m unable to change Incapable…

I lay here on the floor Dizzy from my corner bought medicine Crying from memories not dying Trying to destroy my consciousness Needing to escape this reality Shredding everything out of me Covering my three day bloodshot eyes Trying to cover the tears Wanting to lose these fears Licking my ass goodbye Unable to see…

Lights abound the populous Bodies and lights and sounds converge Lovers become and withdraw into leather We come together Create our own weather And become one

I’m alright now Yet I say fuck you First night dancing Chance to follow Guilt attachment Alone apartment Erase you I want this Hello Soft touches Seduction Paired retreat Three day night Goodnight But my love Can’t die Goodbye Alone surrounded Suicide No more pride Proud of what? I’m lost, a slut And nothing has…

A mind full of pleasant thoughts A cool breeze on a fairly warm day Gracing the top of a hill Surrounded by gorgeous plush waves of grass Covered by a deep blue sky Swimming with rich white clouds I close my eyes and let the wind carry me Above the tree Over the hills along…

Digging my fingers into your sides Kissing your neck and lips fiercely Fucking you with all my heart The heart that pain pierces You standing above me Screaming about how much of an asshole I am Hitting me with your fist Leaving the room crying Deserted where I sit and cry Alone for so long…

Out from around a corner Wrapping my hands around your neck Instantly staring you down Evil glare burning out your eyes ‘Are you fucking blind?’ I will growl into your face. ‘You will not find better.’ As I rip you out of place. ‘You took a small piece Violated her slightly Made her feel good…

I wake to a subtle numbness Coming into a pain filled reality Dizzied in angry despair Lack of money and sanity Hatred for all of humanity As the day slashes on I play nice while I can Thinking hateful thoughts Wanting to be the asshole What I’ve been called for so long Who people thought…

Today inside is vaguely different Calmed by an impossibility However unbelievable and intriguing At peace in the midst of my inner chaos Wondering exactly what this means Is there an implosion stewing? Building ultimately to something bigger Self destruction on reinvented scales Temporarily stitched by an angel Soon to be torn down by my demons…